.....hai...just carn help sighing.. im so tired..as in not literally la. why do friends always disappoint the ppl who truly depended and trusted them?...hai..sometimes i dunno if having friends is a good thing or not.

yeah...there are fun stuff..like..toking and crapping together. but once we start trusting or depending on that person..something happens and we drift apart..or some misunderstandings surface. im so tired of this. sometimes i ask myself if i can live as a loner..having no friends..no cliques or wadever..tot i could..but i carn. i get jealous or envious when i see cliques happily toking together and like draping their arms over each other. its like they are so united. dunno when i can find such friends. hai..

i really feel like crying..but i dunno why i just carn cry..havent been ableto cry for a very very long time. every since the june hols. haha..for me thats long k. yeap. just wanna cry and let it go.

okok enough of such..depressing stuff. tsktsk. tomrrow is the national track and field thingy. we haf to make our way to the stadium by ourselves. gonna go with gerry they all. take cab there and like we haf to cheer. ........... CHEER?!?! i carn cheeR! i mean not carn la. i mean erm..i dun like cheering. but i guess ill just haf to tomorrow. ger's gonna force me. haha.. hope i'll have fun there tomorrow. if not..ill totally die. haha. and i hope cedar wins in.......erm..wadever they are entering la. haha

today mummy couldnt fetch me home. so i had to take the stupid bus home. i was like asking ppl to go with me. but they all couldn. so i just took by myself. not like i hadnt taken it myself before. den i was like on the bus. then this stupid maris stella guy was like 'playing' with his friend. so old already still play..so childish..anyway yeah den they were playing...den he accidentally hit me. den i almost fell down.. i was like..very bu shuang liao. den he keep apologising..i din think he would expect me to answer so i just kept quiet....den he keep on apologising den his firend say 'ei you bully a girl ar!'.....dots...i wanted to roll my eyes lor..but thats so...impolite..haha.. so he just apologise. den i realised he expected a response so i just said never mind. idiot guy. so old liao still play..later i really fall i gonna really get mad. haha..

on the way home it was drizzling...kinduff enjoyed the rain. haha. suddenly remembered the time lgf and the rest of us went to plcc and play basketball under the rain. it was so heavy den we were all wet. but we had so much fun. that was two years ago.....

hai..miss those daes.. anyway..this is a super long entry..bet no one will bother to read..haha..so i'll just end here. take care!