WADS HAPPENING TO MY LIFE??!?!?! *sigh*...i wanna just die...its realy frustrating...i hate this life...sucks like shit. i hate my life..wad is this..first something happened to gong gong..den now max...next who? me? no..i already have a problem. something i wun tell anyone. i cant trust anyone anymore..its just very hard..once i trust someone..that person will let me down. i dun wann trust anymore. i carn. god answers prayers..they said so. mine never gets answered no matter how sincere i am. in fact...the total opposite happens..how can i believe sarah? im sorry i carn do it that easily. i asked for a miracle...in turn, my dog--argh never mind..no one can help.

i thought i found friends. hah..so dumb. like i will really find true friends. i really have nothing to say. why do the ppl that i trust alot always let me down the most. maybe i shldnt have trusted ppl in the first place. so now im not trusting. i only trust myself...but sometimes i do doubt myself...hai..

this sucks. i hate you.