haix...

feeling so down todae.....felt like just curling in my bed and crying for like no reason....i felt so....how do you say it....empty or sumthing....just felt so sad and terrible...all i could think of was to cry...but everyone was at home i couldnt risk ANYTHING....

marmie got sick.....resting the whole day...den we couldnt go anywhere..just stayed at home while i moped summore....

hazel gave me this webbie is lgf photo album or sumthing den i was like just looking through the pics.....i realised how ugly i looked...like shit....my face is SO pimply...not on the photo..the camera didnt catch my pimples...(thank goodness)....now i have tons of pimples...my face is totally distorted liao.....all full of dumb old pimples...WHY WAS PIMPLES CREATED?!! why cant like everyone just haf a oil-less face and just live wif it!! HAI..why why why why why why why..thatts the only thing i can think of right now....

everything is going too fast nowadays...just too fast for my liking.....why issit that just in a while a year has passed and i will be sec 2 already??? why issit that we haf to reach this stage where we haf to change both physically and mentally?? why issit that things haf to change?!!thats the ultimate question....why do things haf to change!!! changes are no doubt good to some ppl...but why do we haf to change frm happi to sad....why cant we just stay happi all the time?!! its just not fair! i hate the time to pass so quickly......however i noe that surely when sumthing happens...it happens for a reason..thats the way i reassure myself when things go wrong(which is many many times) i tell myself that when things happen...sumthing else will happen frm it...it will teaach us a lesson and we haf to look out for the hints of teaching that lies in a simple message....i noe it sounds kinduff...stupid....but well...i cant help it...i haf only this way of comforting myself....and i just wish i could believe myself.... *sighs*